Novemeber 2012

Boys had fun at the Burgoo Festival.  It's a celebration in our town that symbolizes the end of Summer and the beginning of Fall in September.  Vendors come from all over selling their craft or food.  A lof of folks make what they call a Burgoo Stew.  Each recipe is different but the one I tried this year was very spicy.

Halloween Costumes!!

Yoda, James Be!

Stormtrooper - Connor

Fight!

Old Yoda

Fighting for the greater good.

Halloween was a great success.  I even dressed up as Padme.  The boys had heaps of sweet goodness loot.  I honestly surprised that it is almost gone with some help from myself and other family and friends. HAHA!

In other news:

 I'm doing really well in school.  All A's!  I'm in a marketing class this month.  I'm not particulary fond of reading but I do my best to comprehend the information.  I have four classes left for my first year at Full Sail.  

It is honestly amazing how much I see the name of my school in so many publications such as GameStop Magazine or Rolling Stones Magazine.  Full Sail sure is on the up and up in Entertainment.

Josh and I are still together, it was five months on the 16th, will be six on December 16th.  I'm happy with the way things are moving.  He trusts me, I trust him.  He works, I work.  He has his friends, I have mine.  We talk about everything.  

Sometimes my head does a little too much thinking but I can't help that part.  It thinks because it wants to guard my most sensitive piece, my heart, my feelings.  Most of the time I've notice it starts thinking too much around the time Aunt Flow wants to interrupt things. I don't know why, could be the birth control effects or it could just be the mini person inside that looks at the negatives.

I try my best to stay positive and it helps that I have people that want to hear what I have to say when things I feel are not right with me.  I'm glad those people are in my life.

Football season is over.  The Falcons did a great job playing and learning all that they could.  We should be having a banquet soon.  I'll find out next year if the boys want to play again.

School for the boys is going well.  Grades are good even though they aren't labelled as A's, B's or C's which I find simply annoying.  I guess it changes when they get older. I don't know.

Thanksgiving was wonderful!! I hope everyone had a fun time with their families.

Christmas will be here soon.  My shopping is complete, all gifts have been wrapped.  Though I do want to get something for my lovely, compassionate boyfriend, just not sure what.  So I'll be searching high and low for that special something for him until I just can't look anymore!

One month left in 2012! It sure has been a curvy year.  Next year will be even better, I feel it in me bones, matey!!

August 2012

School has started, the end of the first full week has come and will be gone this afternoon.  The boys are doing great so far.  Making new friends, spending time with old ones.

Football is going well.  GO TEAM FALCONS!! Connor was playing as center but this week they have had open positions again, now that the coaches have see the kids play and can place them better with their strengths.  James is falling in love with football.  I tell him to get mean and growl at the other guys.  It's too funny.

KickOff Weekend

Getting Ready!

Getting Mean and Tooting his own horn.

The Whole Team

Varsity, Junior Varsity, Peewee and Chearleaders

Practice Spiking

My Little Football Family!

There's practice tonight and a game tomorrow! I'm excited! I'm proud of my little men.

On to me! I'm doing pretty good.  Almost finished with my first class, this is the last week for it.  Just one project to finish and turn in on Sunday! One class every four weeks for eight months. That's how this online program works.  I'm still seeing Josh and liking him more everyday.

Two weeks from today I will be another year older!! WOW! At 15 you don't think you're gonna make 19. At 19 you don't think you're gonna make 21.  At 21 you don't think you're gonna make it past 25 but you do and the years just keep coming.  Different challenges bring better oppurtunities.

Each year something different presents itself and you make the choice to either take it head on or leave it alone.  This year I've taken a lot of things head on.  Learning to let go and forgive those that have hurt me takes time but I'm a hundred precent positive that I have done that.  I'm a better person for it.

The reasons why I know I'm over my ex hubsand are as follows; I'm no longer worried about him, I'm not concerned with his life anymore.  I'm not putting myself down. I don't feel like a zombie anymore.  He and I were not meant to be together.  He broke his promises that he stood before judge and God vowing to keep.  I did not.  I do not have to carry his burdens anymore.  I FEEL more ALIVE now than I ever did the five years I was married to him.  I have nothing to be jealous about because I am back in school like I set out to be.  I have family that love me.  I don't get manipulated anymore.  I felt as though I was blocked off from the outside world.  Not anymore!  I'm actually having fun being me!

My music helps me in so many ways. Listening to Pink, Katy Perry, Josh Turner, Blake Shelton, Brandy, and all others bring my spirits back from where they came from.  "Just as fast as I can, to the middle of nowhere" - Pink Just Like a Pill, Blow Me A Kiss.  Can't Hold Us Down - Christina Aguilera featuring Lil Kim - "No body can Hold us down" "Offended with what I have to say"and Josh Turner Time Is Love "I only get so many minutes, Don't wanna spend 'em all on the clock, In the time that we spent talkin', How many kisses have I lost?" Gloriana GoodNight and many more. Katy Perry - Wide Awake.  Adele - One And Only "You never know if you never try To forgive your past and simply be mine" Havana Brown featuring PitBull We Run The Night

These songs tell me that there is always hope, always love, always faith no matter what happens in your life.  You're still breathing, still waking up in the morning making it through the day able to come home breathing.  I'm thankful I have what I have. I wouldn't change it for anything.

This song says it all for me! Jennifer Lopez Dance Again So many songs that describe what people go through.  Every song has a meaning you just gotta listen.