Adoption For Travie

Little Travis is up for getting his official family in October and they need your help.  Just a small donation of 5 or 10 dollars will help.  Here is a link to Travis' fund.  This little boy needs his family.

At four months old he was in the care of Melissa and Jennifer, he is now 3 and a half years old.  I think it's time they make it official and they can do that with your help.  Just click on the link above, read their story and make a small donation.

I've know Mel and Jen for a few years but only through online.  They are wonderful parents to this little boy.  Mel, Jen and I have a common interest in The Twilight Saga, we met through twitter first then landed Facebook.  I have enjoyed seeing pictures of Travis and would love to see more of him as he grows up.

So please go to here and make a donation.

Thank you

August 2012

School has started, the end of the first full week has come and will be gone this afternoon.  The boys are doing great so far.  Making new friends, spending time with old ones.

Football is going well.  GO TEAM FALCONS!! Connor was playing as center but this week they have had open positions again, now that the coaches have see the kids play and can place them better with their strengths.  James is falling in love with football.  I tell him to get mean and growl at the other guys.  It's too funny.

KickOff Weekend

Getting Ready!

Getting Mean and Tooting his own horn.

The Whole Team

Varsity, Junior Varsity, Peewee and Chearleaders

Practice Spiking

My Little Football Family!

There's practice tonight and a game tomorrow! I'm excited! I'm proud of my little men.

On to me! I'm doing pretty good.  Almost finished with my first class, this is the last week for it.  Just one project to finish and turn in on Sunday! One class every four weeks for eight months. That's how this online program works.  I'm still seeing Josh and liking him more everyday.

Two weeks from today I will be another year older!! WOW! At 15 you don't think you're gonna make 19. At 19 you don't think you're gonna make 21.  At 21 you don't think you're gonna make it past 25 but you do and the years just keep coming.  Different challenges bring better oppurtunities.

Each year something different presents itself and you make the choice to either take it head on or leave it alone.  This year I've taken a lot of things head on.  Learning to let go and forgive those that have hurt me takes time but I'm a hundred precent positive that I have done that.  I'm a better person for it.

The reasons why I know I'm over my ex hubsand are as follows; I'm no longer worried about him, I'm not concerned with his life anymore.  I'm not putting myself down. I don't feel like a zombie anymore.  He and I were not meant to be together.  He broke his promises that he stood before judge and God vowing to keep.  I did not.  I do not have to carry his burdens anymore.  I FEEL more ALIVE now than I ever did the five years I was married to him.  I have nothing to be jealous about because I am back in school like I set out to be.  I have family that love me.  I don't get manipulated anymore.  I felt as though I was blocked off from the outside world.  Not anymore!  I'm actually having fun being me!

My music helps me in so many ways. Listening to Pink, Katy Perry, Josh Turner, Blake Shelton, Brandy, and all others bring my spirits back from where they came from.  "Just as fast as I can, to the middle of nowhere" - Pink Just Like a Pill, Blow Me A Kiss.  Can't Hold Us Down - Christina Aguilera featuring Lil Kim - "No body can Hold us down" "Offended with what I have to say"and Josh Turner Time Is Love "I only get so many minutes, Don't wanna spend 'em all on the clock, In the time that we spent talkin', How many kisses have I lost?" Gloriana GoodNight and many more. Katy Perry - Wide Awake.  Adele - One And Only "You never know if you never try To forgive your past and simply be mine" Havana Brown featuring PitBull We Run The Night

These songs tell me that there is always hope, always love, always faith no matter what happens in your life.  You're still breathing, still waking up in the morning making it through the day able to come home breathing.  I'm thankful I have what I have. I wouldn't change it for anything.

This song says it all for me! Jennifer Lopez Dance Again So many songs that describe what people go through.  Every song has a meaning you just gotta listen.

July 2012

I am still alive, breathing loving my kids and family. I am stilll living with my parents, still babysitting. Connor has lost six teeth since last August. He turned seven last month. He is half as tall as I am. Gotta measure him and his brother this coming Sunday. Connor has also started playing football. The teams first practice was tonight and I'd have to say it went pretty well.

James is doing great. He wants to so badly do everything that Connor is doing. I feel for the little fellow but then with him being as small as he is I don't think I can handle both my boys getting hit and smashed on game days. At first James didn't want to to be signed up until he was at practice tonight. School starts in just a few weeks, James the kindergartener and Connor the second grader.

Man it feels like yesterday I was bringing them home from the hospital. Time sure does fly when your an adult, but seems so slow as a kid.

I am startin my own NEW adventure pretty soon. Music production program at Full Sail college. I have always had a passion for music , dance, and animals. Music being number so I am going after it. I am excited and nervous, excited because it is my journey and I am taking the reins back.

I have a special someone to thank for lighting a fire under my ass to live because of all the stress I have been under, especially since April. He does know that and I so very much appreciate him for doing that. I have more passion now than I have had in years. The fire was always there I just needed more wood to be placed on it to make it bigger. I really like this man.

Music Production!! Holy cow!! An exciting new journey I can't wait to get started. It is completely online and they will send me a laptop with all the hardware and software to be able to achieve my bachelors goal. A bachelors degree!! In something that I want to do I just hope I have fun learning a new skill, wait I want to enhance my music knowledge.

Well that's it for now. Oh I am officially divorced. I didn't celebrate nor did I cry about it. My new story has begun and I am excited to see where it takes me.

June 2012

School let out the end of May and summer has started.

Connor had art camp last week. He enjoyed making items out of clay.  We will get to see them in a few weeks.

My divorce will be finalized tomorrow by the judge.  Some say I should celebrate but I'm just not sure I should.  I know from clear eyes it wasn't a great relationship but it was my first and it lasted nine years from the time we started dating to the time he said he wanted a divorce.  April was our six year anniversary.