July 2012

I am still alive, breathing loving my kids and family. I am stilll living with my parents, still babysitting. Connor has lost six teeth since last August. He turned seven last month. He is half as tall as I am. Gotta measure him and his brother this coming Sunday. Connor has also started playing football. The teams first practice was tonight and I'd have to say it went pretty well.

James is doing great. He wants to so badly do everything that Connor is doing. I feel for the little fellow but then with him being as small as he is I don't think I can handle both my boys getting hit and smashed on game days. At first James didn't want to to be signed up until he was at practice tonight. School starts in just a few weeks, James the kindergartener and Connor the second grader.

Man it feels like yesterday I was bringing them home from the hospital. Time sure does fly when your an adult, but seems so slow as a kid.

I am startin my own NEW adventure pretty soon. Music production program at Full Sail college. I have always had a passion for music , dance, and animals. Music being number so I am going after it. I am excited and nervous, excited because it is my journey and I am taking the reins back.

I have a special someone to thank for lighting a fire under my ass to live because of all the stress I have been under, especially since April. He does know that and I so very much appreciate him for doing that. I have more passion now than I have had in years. The fire was always there I just needed more wood to be placed on it to make it bigger. I really like this man.

Music Production!! Holy cow!! An exciting new journey I can't wait to get started. It is completely online and they will send me a laptop with all the hardware and software to be able to achieve my bachelors goal. A bachelors degree!! In something that I want to do I just hope I have fun learning a new skill, wait I want to enhance my music knowledge.

Well that's it for now. Oh I am officially divorced. I didn't celebrate nor did I cry about it. My new story has begun and I am excited to see where it takes me.

June 2012

School let out the end of May and summer has started.

Connor had art camp last week. He enjoyed making items out of clay.  We will get to see them in a few weeks.

My divorce will be finalized tomorrow by the judge.  Some say I should celebrate but I'm just not sure I should.  I know from clear eyes it wasn't a great relationship but it was my first and it lasted nine years from the time we started dating to the time he said he wanted a divorce.  April was our six year anniversary.

Our New Life

This will be typed in diary form until I have more to type.  I may do fictional posts here and there to help cope with what is going on in my life right now.

Sept. 16th -
With a new start to life comes a great new phone, new oppurtunities as long as I have my kids I will be ok. I am having help but it all hurts. I am getting stronger every day. Things will eventually start to look up. They just have to.  Kids are in school.  I am still babysitting though.  I hope to continue to babysit.

Nov. 15th -
Two months now living at my parents. It is still so new I still don't know what to feel.  My husband and I have been seperated since August.  Connor and I just finished the FIT program. 

I have a lot of support from family and friends near by along with family and friends far away. 

The boys are doing alright, though when Connor gets off his schedule he gets cranky and complains because he is tired.  James, on the other hand tends to mimick his brother.  School is going well for both of them.  Connor is a Tiger Cub and I still need to order his uniform. 

Some wonderful news this past weekend I gained a sister.  My brother got married on Saturday.  I am happy for them both but it is a bittersweet feeling.  The Bride was gorgeous as the rising sun.  The Groom was as handsome as the setting sun.  I had a wonderful time and so did my boys.

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