First Born - Connor Boy

Connor Boy

You are my first born son.  The one I wanted because I wanted to start a family. 

At first I fumbled around, I'm still fumbling around because you are always growing and need to be taught how to be an independent, self sustaining, human being one day without me. 

At six months old you were already too smart for your own good.  You knew what you wanted and you got it. You went after it.

You started walking just as you were turning a year old. That year went by so fast, I couldn't catch my breathe.  We celebrated you on your birthday and had so much fun.

Fast forward to now, already eleven years old, I worry about stuff that I shouldn't be worrying about until you're much older.  I still worry about because you are my child! I worry about whether you will choose to do the right thing versus the wrong thing. I worry that one day you'll choose your dad over me. 

I'm happy to say that I am proud of you for making the choice to finish cub scouts and to continue with Boy Scouts. You will achieve Eagle Scout, I believe in you! 

2016 New Year New Adventures!

I graduate from Full Sail University with my Bachelors degree last March! I took myself and my kids down there for a few days. We had a blast. They didn't want to leave Daytona Beach. I am making it a goal of mine to make it back down there again at some point! 

Connor turned 10, James turned 9, then I turned 31. Last year wasn't very exciting other than us going to Florida and my business trip top Chicago in July.  

Halloween came and gone, Thanksgiving too.

Then it was Christmas. Boys had a blast. They enjoyed they're gifts. Our new puppy, Leo is doing wonderful. He's always by my side. He doesn't like when I leave him alone. Leo is an easy going pup. I hardly have issues with him. He listens to me and knows when I'm disappointed in his behavior.

My life as a single mother has it's challenges but I wouldn't be the person I am today without overcoming those challenges. One of those challenges was finally realizing the people I want, not only in my life but my children's lives as well.

I have a new job at Panera Bread. Today was my fourth day. It is different than McDonald's and Papa John's. There are more ingredients to remember what goes on what sandwich and which salad. There's also remembering the different types of breads that are baked. 

I am still an Independent Designer with Origami Owl. My three  year anniversary is this year, I'm excited. 2016 is THE year to join Origami Owl! So much has changed and the 2017 incentive trip is amazing!

My Pepper Girl had to be put down just recently. That was difficult.

I'm not sure how often I'll post but I'll slowly get back into the swing of blogging again. I like to write and have gotten a lot better.

It is now time for me to climb my happy butt into bed. Goodnight.

Christmas Is Upon Us

Are you ready?

I sure am.  The kids’ presents all wrapped and tagged from Santa, yes they are still young enough to believe.  Heck, I still believe. 

My seven year old, Connor had asked me about Santa, all I told him was “As long as you believe in him, Santa is always going to be there.”  Hopefully the kids at his school aren’t mean to him about it. 

I had taken them to get Santa pictures and they both know that our Santa here is their Papa, which they have been told that he is helping Santa.  That it’s a lot of work to get all the little boys and girls names and their favorite things to put under the decorated tree in their house.

Believing is always half the battle when wanting something.  I believe I will pass all of my classes this year at Full Sail University, so far I am. 

Our tree is decorated in blue, white and silver, my dad’s, Gampy’s favorite color.  It is very pretty and he likes it.

The Christmas candy mom always makes this time of year has been made and passed out.  I was able to send some to my best friend that lives in Oklahoma.  My favorite treat is the Oreo Truffles.  The recipe I will post on my cooking blog, here.

The kids get out of school on the 19^th of December and go back to school on the 2^nd of January.

The accomplished feeling is a wonderful feeling to have to one has completely a task such as buying and wrapping all gifts with enough time to enjoy the Christmas break with ones children or family and friends.

I hope you are ready and enjoying your special time with those special people.  Until next post Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

Novemeber 2012

Boys had fun at the Burgoo Festival.  It's a celebration in our town that symbolizes the end of Summer and the beginning of Fall in September.  Vendors come from all over selling their craft or food.  A lof of folks make what they call a Burgoo Stew.  Each recipe is different but the one I tried this year was very spicy.

Halloween Costumes!!

Yoda, James Be!

Stormtrooper - Connor

Fight!

Old Yoda

Fighting for the greater good.

Halloween was a great success.  I even dressed up as Padme.  The boys had heaps of sweet goodness loot.  I honestly surprised that it is almost gone with some help from myself and other family and friends. HAHA!

In other news:

 I'm doing really well in school.  All A's!  I'm in a marketing class this month.  I'm not particulary fond of reading but I do my best to comprehend the information.  I have four classes left for my first year at Full Sail.  

It is honestly amazing how much I see the name of my school in so many publications such as GameStop Magazine or Rolling Stones Magazine.  Full Sail sure is on the up and up in Entertainment.

Josh and I are still together, it was five months on the 16th, will be six on December 16th.  I'm happy with the way things are moving.  He trusts me, I trust him.  He works, I work.  He has his friends, I have mine.  We talk about everything.  

Sometimes my head does a little too much thinking but I can't help that part.  It thinks because it wants to guard my most sensitive piece, my heart, my feelings.  Most of the time I've notice it starts thinking too much around the time Aunt Flow wants to interrupt things. I don't know why, could be the birth control effects or it could just be the mini person inside that looks at the negatives.

I try my best to stay positive and it helps that I have people that want to hear what I have to say when things I feel are not right with me.  I'm glad those people are in my life.

Football season is over.  The Falcons did a great job playing and learning all that they could.  We should be having a banquet soon.  I'll find out next year if the boys want to play again.

School for the boys is going well.  Grades are good even though they aren't labelled as A's, B's or C's which I find simply annoying.  I guess it changes when they get older. I don't know.

Thanksgiving was wonderful!! I hope everyone had a fun time with their families.

Christmas will be here soon.  My shopping is complete, all gifts have been wrapped.  Though I do want to get something for my lovely, compassionate boyfriend, just not sure what.  So I'll be searching high and low for that special something for him until I just can't look anymore!

One month left in 2012! It sure has been a curvy year.  Next year will be even better, I feel it in me bones, matey!!

August 2012

School has started, the end of the first full week has come and will be gone this afternoon.  The boys are doing great so far.  Making new friends, spending time with old ones.

Football is going well.  GO TEAM FALCONS!! Connor was playing as center but this week they have had open positions again, now that the coaches have see the kids play and can place them better with their strengths.  James is falling in love with football.  I tell him to get mean and growl at the other guys.  It's too funny.

KickOff Weekend

Getting Ready!

Getting Mean and Tooting his own horn.

The Whole Team

Varsity, Junior Varsity, Peewee and Chearleaders

Practice Spiking

My Little Football Family!

There's practice tonight and a game tomorrow! I'm excited! I'm proud of my little men.

On to me! I'm doing pretty good.  Almost finished with my first class, this is the last week for it.  Just one project to finish and turn in on Sunday! One class every four weeks for eight months. That's how this online program works.  I'm still seeing Josh and liking him more everyday.

Two weeks from today I will be another year older!! WOW! At 15 you don't think you're gonna make 19. At 19 you don't think you're gonna make 21.  At 21 you don't think you're gonna make it past 25 but you do and the years just keep coming.  Different challenges bring better oppurtunities.

Each year something different presents itself and you make the choice to either take it head on or leave it alone.  This year I've taken a lot of things head on.  Learning to let go and forgive those that have hurt me takes time but I'm a hundred precent positive that I have done that.  I'm a better person for it.

The reasons why I know I'm over my ex hubsand are as follows; I'm no longer worried about him, I'm not concerned with his life anymore.  I'm not putting myself down. I don't feel like a zombie anymore.  He and I were not meant to be together.  He broke his promises that he stood before judge and God vowing to keep.  I did not.  I do not have to carry his burdens anymore.  I FEEL more ALIVE now than I ever did the five years I was married to him.  I have nothing to be jealous about because I am back in school like I set out to be.  I have family that love me.  I don't get manipulated anymore.  I felt as though I was blocked off from the outside world.  Not anymore!  I'm actually having fun being me!

My music helps me in so many ways. Listening to Pink, Katy Perry, Josh Turner, Blake Shelton, Brandy, and all others bring my spirits back from where they came from.  "Just as fast as I can, to the middle of nowhere" - Pink Just Like a Pill, Blow Me A Kiss.  Can't Hold Us Down - Christina Aguilera featuring Lil Kim - "No body can Hold us down" "Offended with what I have to say"and Josh Turner Time Is Love "I only get so many minutes, Don't wanna spend 'em all on the clock, In the time that we spent talkin', How many kisses have I lost?" Gloriana GoodNight and many more. Katy Perry - Wide Awake.  Adele - One And Only "You never know if you never try To forgive your past and simply be mine" Havana Brown featuring PitBull We Run The Night

These songs tell me that there is always hope, always love, always faith no matter what happens in your life.  You're still breathing, still waking up in the morning making it through the day able to come home breathing.  I'm thankful I have what I have. I wouldn't change it for anything.

This song says it all for me! Jennifer Lopez Dance Again So many songs that describe what people go through.  Every song has a meaning you just gotta listen.